Solitude and routine

It's strange being suddenly single, and stranger still living alone, after living with my ex partner for such a long time.  At times I hate it (and it's definitely not my plan for much longer), but I am gradually settling into it a little.  Over the last year or so I have struggled a lot being comfortable in my own company, so to suddenly have so much of it is hard but perhaps good for me!  I'm trying to learn to be more at ease with myself, and with a slower, calmer pace to life.  I still feel very sad a lot of the time, but at least I am calm. 

I think the answer is routine.  Life has felt so unfamiliar and strange, so gradually working out my own routines (after so long in a relationship with a shift worker I wasn't even sure what time I like to go to bed!) and sticking to them definitely give me a sense of reassurance.  I'm also trying very hard to nurture myself a bit, cook myself nice meals even if they are just for me, clean sheets on the bed every Sunday, candles and calming herbal teas.  Sounds boring I know but 2013 had far too much excitement, this year all I am aiming for is calm contentment!

If anyone has any suggestions for solitary activities to keep me busy, send them my way.  Or things that you do to be extra nice to yourself?

In other news, I'm going to post a recipe soon - watch this space x

A new beginning

It's 2014!

I didn't write in this blog at all in 2013.  Not one word!  There were very good reasons why not, as I can quite confidently state that 2013 was the hardest year of my life, from pretty much start to finish, but oh thank heavens it's over now. The countdown to the New Year seemed especially significant this time around, of course it is all arbitrary (and a terrible cliche) but psychologically speaking the change feels so welcome, a true new start.  And so gin and tonic in hand I started 2014 a little crumpled but deep down stronger, and really very hopeful that better times are ahead.  In fact they've already begun.  I have so many plans!

I'm unexpectedly single, surprisingly optimistic, and counting my many blessings.  I have the best friends a person could ever ask for.  If the first week-and-a-bit is anything to go by 2014 is going to be about good food and company, and I hope to spend a little more time sharing some of that here.  Even if just for myself. 

Happy new year everybody xx