Saturday, 8 February 2014

Solitude and routine

It's strange being suddenly single, and stranger still living alone, after living with my ex partner for such a long time.  At times I hate it (and it's definitely not my plan for much longer), but I am gradually settling into it a little.  Over the last year or so I have struggled a lot being comfortable in my own company, so to suddenly have so much of it is hard but perhaps good for me!  I'm trying to learn to be more at ease with myself, and with a slower, calmer pace to life.  I still feel very sad a lot of the time, but at least I am calm. 

I think the answer is routine.  Life has felt so unfamiliar and strange, so gradually working out my own routines (after so long in a relationship with a shift worker I wasn't even sure what time I like to go to bed!) and sticking to them definitely give me a sense of reassurance.  I'm also trying very hard to nurture myself a bit, cook myself nice meals even if they are just for me, clean sheets on the bed every Sunday, candles and calming herbal teas.  Sounds boring I know but 2013 had far too much excitement, this year all I am aiming for is calm contentment!

If anyone has any suggestions for solitary activities to keep me busy, send them my way.  Or things that you do to be extra nice to yourself?

In other news, I'm going to post a recipe soon - watch this space x